The stagecoach pulled to a stop. The doors open and the Apaches explode into violence. Bro. Reynolds is pummeled with a swiftness and savagery that makes the even the reptilian agent widen his eyes in amazed shock at these mammals. He slips like a shadow around the revolting scene. The men of Saras were insane in the rage and violation to the target. Maras is cold efficiency.

The dry scents of the open desert fill my nose and the feel of the scalding sand on my pads makes me tingle with life-force. I love this thick physicality, the breath, the adrenaline making these muscles feel so incredibly alive when I tear into a living prey.

This is so different that the regimented life and disembodied consciousness in the Ethership Corps for Maras. I may have resonated with the star clusters of Aldebaran and tuned to the black towers of Carcosa behind the moon, but now I have gone beyond the Council of the Selected. I have tasted Independence.

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It is possible that this was a poisoning from the future, that they had lost a piece of cargo and the contaminated the timeline. Did it really have to do with the Ark of the Covenant (acting as radioactive Orgone Accumulator with a deady charge)? Did they fire it up after the Crusades and lose it because they had no idea how to use it?

Lorenzo de Medici was excommunicated by the Pope, and it would seem that the group he represented was aware that something had gone very wrong… right at the time of the Renaissance. And there is the real essence: the mourning of a lost sexuality and the divinity that is at the essence of intense primal human sexuality. de Medici, with artists like Poussin, were encoding a natural longing for a sexually permissive time before the constraints of modern society.

Which brings us back to the Shugborough House, which has an image of the Shepherds. This was placed by George Anson, a man who was basically a pirate. He was a commissioned British officer in the Navy, but, when he was nearly dead in China, he seized a Spanish galleon that was full of gold, and he was able to buy his paradise when he returned. I am sure his travels around the world and his experience with the natural and sensual peoples of the Pacific Islands proved to him the ideas embedded by Poussin.

The death of sexuality in Europe, and the birth of Ego and Death.

The Lost Reports of Chris Titan, 2006|08|31|03:30

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Dark Fnords 203.

Blacking out on pirate rum, intermittent consciousness.

I stagger out to the Cross Roads, a belligerent incarnated ball of rage, and I stand there, black wings flapping, wearing a large purple sombrero, and firing a toy laser gun into the air.

What I did not see was Yoalli Tlauana descend on the cross roads; and in a flash, the moment I blacked out, he fell from the sky bearing the Obsidian Blade. Cutting through my sternum like butter, my heart was gone— the blade gently slipped under my skin and slipped it lose in one piece.

I found my laser gun in the back yard two days later… I don’t recall going to my circle at all…

The Lost Reports of Chris Titan, 2006|09|20|16:05

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